So, I cannot stress the fact that the end of this pregnancy could not get here fast enough!!! As most of you know, a pregnant woman's mind is CRAZY!!!! My mind is constantly going, 24/7. I do a lot of thinking about myself as a mother. I have a hard time checking people's blogs these days because they all seem like such wonderful, caring mothers. At this point in my life, I feel like the meanest mom ever!!!! I have been so short with my kids these days. Cayge came up to me the other day and said "I can't wait for the baby to get here!" My reply being: "you are going to be such a good big brother, what are you looking forward to the most?" Cayge's reply: "So that you will stop being so mean all the time. You are constantly yelling at us. Maybe when the baby gets here you will be nicer." And of course, I yell at him for being such a jerk. But really, he was just speaking honestly, should I really get mad at him for being honest? But I just feel that with each passing day, I do get meaner and meaner. I don't mean to be, and I do try REALLY hard to be as nice as possible. I feel as though I come unglued for the dumbest reasons at both the kids and Rayce. No wonder he works constantly, I wouldn't want to be around me either. So here are a few of the reasons why I feel so short tempered lately
#1 - I get little to no sleep each night because I'm so huge and uncomfortable.
#2 - Because I am so darn huge, I get very little to no sleep each night.
#3 - I AM SO DANG TIRED BECAUSE I DON'T GET ANY SLEEP!!!!!!
Oh, wait, those all three are the same. :( But really, I feel like I am a crabby monster because I am so darn tired. At least when the baby gets here I will be completely worn out from taking care of her, not because my hips hurt so bad that I am ready to sever my legs off.
So, I am trying to be a good mom, do the things that good moms do. So if you ever come over to my house, and you hear me yelling at the kids before you even knock, you might just want to walk away, and pray for my kids.
2 comments:
Hey girl - don't be so hard on yourself. Being pregnant is hard and drains everything out of you - sleep, patience, brain cells, sanity, energy,..I could go on...Give yourself a break - you.are.growing.a.HUMAN!!
O, and good luck with the upcoming delivery - can't wait to see pictures of your sweet little babe!
Oh Candi, I am so sorry, I remember how miserable it is at the end. I was an awful person too at the end. I can pretty much say everyone in my family hated me ha ha ha. It's going to be over soon and I can't wait to see that little baby! It will be all worth it :)
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